I need freedom.
Because I am freedom.
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Relationships that are as taut, mean and narrow
as walking on a high wire hijacks improvisation,
creativity,
joy and moving forward.
I do not seek fear, or threats of being pulled off and shut down.
I seek freedom.
The past is the present until one opens into the present.
Nothing is still.
I am not who I was yesterday, an hour ago, a moment ago.
I uphold fidelity, balance and integrity in relationships.
I respect the constant learning,
breaking open
and releasing patterns that:
drain the life force,
cut the wings,
capsize discovery,
and
practice cruel chutes and ladders games that are designed to lure one in and then spin one out into emptiness.
I will not and cannot be bolted to a polished and well maintained comfort zone.
I need revelations and torrents of passion.
Hallelujahs and bliss.
My question always: am I (are you) moving beyond my (your) comfort zone?
Yes, I will be your nest, harbor and happy bells of laughter.
I cannot be tripped, trapped, boxed.
I cannot be threatened with abandonment and withholding of truth.
My kindness is not to be tapped and used as a lotion.
My kindness is offered as a bouquet, a balm.
I welcome the full humanity of those I love.
Love is a decision to see the other with an original eye.
I offer wings, large fields, celebrate the depth and the breadth of imagination, creative devotion and inspiration.
I seek the fuel of grace, wonder and rapture.
Boundless and replenishing.
I seek the simplicity in your complexity and the complexity in your simplicity.
I cannot be the same as I was yesterday for you.
We all float between heaven and earth.
Intimacy is releasing the mask and telling the truth
to the one whose heart you respect and find deep pleasure within.
I am personal.
A tight rope walking relationship does not invite delight.
It watches for lapses.
It feeds on power and distancing and cruelty.
It is a surveillance camera
My life and my joy is now, the present.
I need the challenge and life force of forward motion.
I cannot and will not go backward.
It is the past.
I believe in resilience, hope and renewal granted by faith, patience and forgiveness.
The truth of me is in y/our wing of motion- moving ahead.
CATHERINE L. JOHNSON 