achievingluminous riSINGs from naming, clearing and conquering/mastering challenges
when describinga mere individual
whomeets and confronts their internal/external beasts/demons/dragonshead-on
steering their shipwith clearsight, discernment, wisdom, courage, compassionate grace
and is
TRIUMPHANT
in overcoming – creating a new pattern of being in the world.
No one is ever alone when one is truly, purely loved for who they are.
Yes, there is always the necessary solitude, silence, sorting to SEE the sea
– yet, a beloved is never forgotten.
Triumph is the courage to knowthe value of who you are
and
be a compassionate, tender, loving guardian of your own welfare and happiness.
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Good NEW BREED LEADERS’, masters’, interactions in their internal/ external world is more than being valiant, they must have a certain capacity for thinking beyond binary/polarities and tapping into full, embodied knowing (prayer/meditation). They have a tolerance for ambiguity (faith), an ability to hold creative tensions (radical hope), and an ability to care (love) beyond their own personal advantage.
[val-yuh nt]
adjective
boldly courageous; brave; stout-hearted: a valiant soldier.
marked by or showing bravery or valor; heroic: to make a valiant effort.
worthy; excellent.
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As we start trying to love,
we begin to realize that we’re actually
not loving very well.
We are mostly meeting our own needs.
The word for this is “codependency.”
This kind of love is still impure and self-seeking
and
thus is not really love at all.
So, we have to pull back
and
learn the great art of detachment,
which is not aloofness but
the purifying of attachment…
…The creative, transformative dance
between attachment and detachment
is sometimes called
the Third Way.
It is the middle way between fight and flight.
Some prefer to take onthe world:
to fight it, change it, fix it, and rearrange it.
Others denythere is a problem at all.
“Everything is beautiful,” they say and look the other way.
Both instincts avoid holding the tension,
the pain, and the essentially tragic nature of human existence.
The contemplativestance is the Third Way.
We stand in the middle,
neither taking the world on from another power position
nor denying it for fear of the pain it will bring.
Once we can stand in that third spacious way,
neither directly fighting or fleeing,
we are in the place of grace
out of which genuine newness can come.
This is where creativityand new forms of life and healing emerge.
Richard Rohr: “Essential Teachings on Love”
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Each and everyone of us is a unique,
unrepeatable and dynamic
Universe.
Our night skies of scintillating stars,
our unique internal constellation,
and
our dawnings of awakenings/epiphanies are catalysts
that cloud our SEEING and STOPS our movement to DANCE with YES.
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Can a healing
breakthrough
occur
and
part the clouds, seas and reactive visceral wasteland
into a
NEW HAPPYJOY SONG?
YES?
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Hubris <> Humility
HUBRIS:
“Through pride we are ever deceiving ourselves. But deep down below the surface of the average conscience a still, small voice says to us, something is out of tune.” Carl Jung
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“I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will neverforget how you made them feel.”
Maya Angelou
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HUMILITY:
“Pride makes us artificial and humility makes us real.”Thomas Merton
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“Do you wish to rise? Begin by descending. You plan a tower that will pierce the clouds? Lay first the foundation of humility.”
Saint Augustine
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2 June 2018 Catherine L. Johnson
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eMOTIONal TRIGGERS
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Telling the truth, disclosing, revealing an eMOTIONal TRIGGER to a beloved is the courage of love. INTIMATE information of being naked, vulnerable, overwhelmed. Being in TRIGGERland is NOT the NOW – it is the THEN when I had NO VOICE. The revelation can be hurled out as a HOWL, a blaring SIREN, a dog growling showing its teeth when its tail is wagging because I am telling YOU – who I trust with ALL my heart. I may sound stern and SCARY because I am anxious, exposed and ashamed. It is MY work to be a responsible and loving FARMER. I must confront the eMOTIONal TRIGGER – find its roots, recognize its origin and PULL it UP and OUT because my eMOTIONal TRIGGER may possibly incite an eMOTIONal TRIGGER in you – and, this could generate an OH NOa downward spiral and SHUTdownsmay occur. We learn from disclosures and sacred listening and then adapt, improvise to overcome – ALL to move forward with sweet honorable love.
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I desire to inspire and seed BLOOMING. Relationships, like gardens, are ALIVE, dynamic, need tender nourishing, nurturing, and the continuous practice of the Serenity Prayer to upholdits health and dance – to live and move forward like the MIGHTY Mississippi River. Like a GOOD FARMER, I know I musttend to my own garden by digging FAR DOWN, carefully identify, extricate and releasE the OLD knotted unhealthy roots that holds back my breath and laughter – living LOVE WITH who I love.
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BLOOOM #5 Catherine L. Johnson 2017
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FREEEEEEdom.
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Quietly, sweet. I do ask for patience + assistanceso I may SOAR, freed, please. I would be honored to reciprocate and give you my patience and assistance as you EXPLORE the BOUNDLESS skies and seas within you. NEW constellations and compositions THAT IS livingELATION. YES.To be the guardians of each other’s solitude.* Absolutely!
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VITAL RAFWHITE SILK SCARF TRUTH:
When navigating difficult waters between one another – a dark night, it is absolutely critical to NOT use the BINARY vehicle of hard, cold email, it divides and sterilizes the poem, the beauty, the radiant song, the lullaby, the laughter, the joy and the blessed gift of who you are together. The difficult waters NEEDthe MUSIC of BOTH of your LIVE presences, your souls, your full spectrum voices, your intimate hymn and code to make the voyage and BREAKTHROUGHinto dawns + ONTOnew horizon of more refined truths and living love. The binary nature of email is dualistic, does not surrender to a higher consciousness, damages, does NOT improvise, it destroys + devours, obfuscates, and is basically an evil coward whose teeth cannot hear and cannot SEE the luminous pearls that lives in BOTH of your hearts. Yes, writing to one another OPENS exhilarating vistas of WONDER and AWE – sharing each other’s INTERNAL UNIVERSE which is FREEDOM, especially when the writing is received with delight, welcomed and treasured as a rare gift. Yet, in times when sacred listening and collaboration is necessary email failsto be a brilliant hurricane lamp. The sonics of blissis PRESENCEand is the FIRE of how dissonance becomes consonance once again followed by FRESH resonances >NEW MUSIC< BOTH arrivING on NEW shores of comfort and JOY together– MISSION accomplished. Knowing/TRUSTthe heart map IS always inked in your RAFWHITE SILK SCARF, listen to your soul’s knowing – HOMEfires!The revelation of LIGHT enters the dark with GRACE releasingfalse narratives/perceptionsand compasses are reset, clarified, with BOTH of your coordinates of TRUE North. Yourspitfires are readied toSOAR into majestic skies with FAIR PLAY!
LOVE isCOURAGE
COURAGE is LOVE
LIVINGloVE is the most profound improvisational collaborative innovative jazzNEWmuseic.
VALIANT.
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Life is in relation and called out by our collaborativerelationships we select and nurture with integrity.
When someone is NOTin TRIGGERland, they have a clearerperspective of whattheywant in life. CLARITY, a clearlens to seewhat IS.
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YES, eMOTIONal TRIGGERS can be “rooted UP + OUT“!
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YAAAY!FREEDOM!LIVING LOVEwith HONOR/ RESPECT/ CLARITY! LOVE is an ENERGY, a vibration, and like the BEST GENIUS SONICS, LOVE is improvisational and collaborative. When MASTER sacred listening is woven WITH unfolding conversations and NEW imaginative questions – (catalysts of amaZING GRACE vistas), LOVE LIBERATES!Authentic,call and response love IS a practice, a voyage, a BREAKTHROUGH, that yieldsbliss and tastes of HEAVEN on EARTH. A blesSING, a blessedgift.
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Ask any ARTIST and/or GENIUS of any field of inquiry, WHY discipline and perseverance is necessary to create/nurture breathtaking beauty, elegance and surprise withgrace. Their answer is of declaring the honoring and respecting the DIVINE within, and so it goes for LIVINGLOVE.
FARMERS OF LOVE.
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I am not perfect.
I believe
anyone, if willing, can be in the state
of awareness
of their own self-directedchoices, their thoughts,
choosing how to navigate their own internal /external circumstances
and practice the dynamics of adjustmentsto what is real:
MOVING FORWARDIN LIFE
demonstrated by courage and humility,
and
the willingness and the ability
to revise world views, perspectives, perceptions and amend behavior
through each life experience.
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HEALING
needs to take place
at a deeper levelthan of conscious thought
– a place where the consciousmind is outof the way.
Re-wiring. Re-patterning. Re-learning. Releasing.
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LIVING a
FULLBLOOOOMING
loving life
is an unknown, non-binary
DANCE
navigating /negotiating
oceans of uncertainty,
PRACTICing, practICING, PRACTicing,
responsive and fluidadjustments to life’s constancy of change
and
is
an exhilarating
LIVING A/LIVE JOY DANCE
attuned to
Nature’sgenerous BOUNTIFULofferings and spiritual lessons:
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Opening UP
to
uncertainty, surrendering to FLOW and dedicated discoverylearning
Triggers are like old cassette tapes that play old programs. You get triggered by someone or something that happens, and that old cassette plays once again.
When you’re triggered, you are regressing to a younger version of yourself that learned how to react or respond to your environment. If you had something happen to you when you were younger that caused a significant impact to your nervous system, where you felt high emotional stress, then that’s most likely when a trigger was formed.
We take these triggers that formed years ago into our adult relationships. This causes problems because most of what happens today is not the same context of when the trigger was created so long ago. If you formed triggers when you were a child living with your parents or other guardians, then that situation is different than your current situation, most likely. Though, you do have to be aware that some situations are similar. If you had an abusive mom or dad, then you married an abusive person, you created the same context in which your old triggers will stay active. Which is why it’s so important to break the pattern of old triggers so you can think from a place of clarity.
Thinking from clarity gives you more options, and allows you to see what you can’t see when you are triggered.When you can disengage trigger moments from the bad thoughts and feelings, you are empowered to engage your assertiveness, confidence, and conviction to state what you want and don’t want in your life. Living without the cloudiness of triggers is living with passion and purpose. It is a healthy, selfish state, instead of an unhealthy, self-centered, fearful state. There is a difference, as selfishness can contain compassion for others, while self-centeredness is more about your own ego – your own wants, needs, fears and desires.Remove the cloudiness, become healthy and make decisions that positively affect you and your well-being.
The steps to this entire process are as follows:
Think of something that triggers you now.
Identify the emotions that you get from being triggered.
Go way back in your mind and think about the very first time you felt this way.
If you can’t figure out what caused the trigger in the first place, just think of an age or a time period when it might have happened.
Once you think of a time when it might have been created, think about a time long before that, when you didn’t have those negative feelings. Think about a day or a week, or even years, or maybe even lifetimes before that first event ever happened. This is just your brain’s way of storing information. Just allow it to go where ever it needs to go to find a place when all of those emotions are completely gone now.
When you are way before any of those old feelings, come back to now, and imagine a time when you might get triggered in the future. Does it have the same impact? Are the emotions completely gone?
I didn’t say this before, but if they have disappeared completely just lock that feeling into place, sort of like a safe with a combination lock. This safe is your safe and whenever you have an experience where that old trigger used to happen, your safe has locked into place what you’ll be feeling instead of those old feelings. Hey, this doesn’t have to make sense, you can just let old feelings go and allow yourself to feel safe. Now that’s something you want for yourself, right?
Finally, remember that triggers are almost always the creation and belief system of a child. When you were young, you learned how to respond to the world. Imagine if you kept all your childhood beliefs? Having a childlike playfulness can make life enjoyable sometimes, but having a childlike fear can be intrusive in normal life. It can wear you down and make you see the world through filters that aren’t necessarily telling you the whole truth.
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I know and accept
eMOTIONal TRIGGERS
are normal responses
from my/our
“experientially lived life stories”
wired
brain.
Yet, eMOTIONal TRIGGERS
do NOT have toSTAYin my/our lives
ifthey are
CAUSING painful,super BLUNDERING
problems andSHUTdowns!
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To live in
TRIGGERland
is constant stress
that causes overwhelming + 222 much pain
that it makes me/one NEED to isolate
as the ONLY survival option
and
GO to the underground BUNKER
– alone
retreat to feel safe and to reset life
I know this.
HARD, eclipsing the vitality of breath + radical HOPE,
exhausting the HeART/ BODY/ SOUL.
This makes me sad, cry. I know THIS reality. I “get it”.
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BETTERto FARM
and
BLOOOOM!!!!!
LIVEGREEEN
CHOOSE adventure,
unveil, disclose, reVEal
taking the DISCIPLINED risk
of
entering
BEAUTY
+
HAPPINESS
because
LIFE is meant
to be
DISCOVERED / LIVED
as an explorer, a RAF
detectivepriest
of
one’s pursuit of
HAPPINESS
+
to LIVE one’s
TRUTH.
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R/evolution
as we
TELL THE TRUTH,
adapt,
IMPROVISE
overCOME.
A selectfew of us HUMANS
are dogs living in human bodies!
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LEARNDISCOVERY is life long
for the OPEN-hearted.
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Ask my dog,
Jaspar Obi
and
his BCF who is called Queen X
THEIR sentient intelligence
IS
an immeasurable
a DARK sTar energy
beyond
my/our comprehension.
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I fall because I am human and I lose my compass and vision.
I SUPER blunder and SOUND like a sharpened scary SPEAR.
The dog heart in me believes in me, knows I am scared,
and KNOWS my capacity to learn and RISE,
once again, will occur withcourage and compassion.
Forgive me.
I will try and I will learn and I will improvise and I will overcome and I will heal.
I shall overcome with God’s GRACE and encouragement and illumination.
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LEARNINGDISCOVERINGTAKINGRESPONSIBILITY
torecognizemy/our triggers,
and
to start
LOOKING INWARD
for the solution,
NOT OUTWARD
at the world!!!
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“Find a place inside where there’s joy,and the joy will burn out the pain.“
* “The point of marriage “of an improvisational and collaborative healthy loving relationship” is not to create a quick commonality by tearing down all boundaries; on the contrary, a good marriage “healthy, dynamic and loving relationship” is one in which each partner appoints the other to be the guardian of his solitude, and thus they show each other the greatest possible trust. A merging of two people is an impossibility, and where it seems to exist, it is a hemming-in, a mutual consent that robs one party or both parties of their fullest freedom and development. But once the realization is accepted that even between the closest people infinite distances exist, a marvelous living side-by-side can grow up for them, if they succeed in loving the expanse between them, which gives them the possibility of always seeing each other as a whole and before an immense sky.”
Number 7 resonates with the vibrations and energies of the ‘Collective Consciousness’, faith and spirituality, spiritual awakening and awareness, spiritual enlightenment, spiritual development, mysticism, intuition and inner-knowing, inner wisdom, psychic abilities, the esoteric, inner-selves, deep contemplation, introspection, eccentric, religion, thoughtfulness, understanding of others, natural healer and healing, secrets, myth, ritual, peace, poise, emotions and feelings, inner-strength, endurance and perseverance, persistence of purpose, the ability to bear hardships, quick-wit, the loner, solitary, isolation, long-sighted, the non-conformist, independence and individualism, intentions, manifesting and manifestation in time and space and good fortune.
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Number 7 also relates to the attributes of mental analysis, philosophy and philosophical, technicality, scientific research, science, alchemy, genius, a keen mind, specializing and the specialist, the inventor, determination, the written word, logic, understanding, knowledge, discernment and discerning, knowledge seeking, study, education and learning, writing and the writer, evolution, stability, the ability to set limits, completion, refinement, stoicism, silence, perfection, chastity, dignity, ascetic, rigor, ahead of the times.
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Rumi
Rumi’s Little Book of Life: The Garden of the Soul, the Heart, and the Spirit
by Rumi(Author), Maryam Mafi (Translator), Azima Melita Kolin (Translator)
MY RAF K9 JASPAR OBI TAUGHT ME YES LOVE + YES LOVING IS THE ELIXIR OF FOXHOLE MATES
My beloved Daddy navigated bipolar. 
My brothers: Dr. William Johnson Omlie + Blake Johnson Omlie. I took them on 8/24/18. Sacred.
TODAY! 13 February 2020
Orthopedic reconstruction surgery #55 DAY: WHEEEEEEE!
Post op: 3 February 2020
Post-op: 13 February 2020
CATHERINE L. JOHNSON 