VALIANT
I love the abstract meaning of VALIANT.
Above and beyond the mere written definition,
I love its REAL demonstration in
living an examined life, living authentic love,
and
achieving luminous riSINGs from naming, clearing and conquering/mastering challenges
when describing a mere individual
who meets and confronts their internal/external beasts/demons/dragons head-on
steering their ship with clearsight, discernment, wisdom, courage, compassionate grace
and is
TRIUMPHANT
in overcoming – creating a new pattern of being in the world.
No one is ever alone when one is truly, purely loved for who they are.
Yes, there is always the necessary solitude, silence, sorting to SEE the sea
– yet, a beloved is never forgotten.
Triumph is the courage to know the value of who you are
and
be a compassionate, tender, loving guardian of your own welfare and happiness.
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Good NEW BREED LEADERS’, masters’, interactions in their internal/ external world is more than being valiant, they must have a certain capacity for thinking beyond binary/polarities and tapping into full, embodied knowing (prayer/meditation). They have a tolerance for ambiguity (faith), an ability to hold creative tensions (radical hope), and an ability to care (love) beyond their own personal advantage.
[val-yuh nt]
adjective
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boldly courageous; brave; stout-hearted: a valiant soldier.
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marked by or showing bravery or valor; heroic: to make a valiant effort.
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worthy; excellent.
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As we start trying to love,
we begin to realize that we’re actually
not loving very well.
We are mostly meeting our own needs.
The word for this is “codependency.”
This kind of love is still impure and self-seeking
and
thus is not really love at all.
So, we have to pull back
and
learn the great art of detachment,
which is not aloofness but
the purifying of attachment…
…The creative, transformative dance
between attachment and detachment
is sometimes called
the Third Way.
It is the middle way between fight and flight.
Some prefer to take on the world:
to fight it, change it, fix it, and rearrange it.
Others deny there is a problem at all.
“Everything is beautiful,” they say and look the other way.
Both instincts avoid holding the tension,
the pain, and the essentially tragic nature of human existence.
The contemplative stance is the Third Way.
We stand in the middle,
neither taking the world on from another power position
nor denying it for fear of the pain it will bring.
Once we can stand in that third spacious way,
neither directly fighting or fleeing,
we are in the place of grace
out of which genuine newness can come.
This is where creativity and new forms of life and healing emerge.
Richard Rohr: “Essential Teachings on Love”
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Each and everyone of us is a unique,
unrepeatable and dynamic
Universe.
Our night skies of scintillating stars,
our unique internal constellation,
and
our dawnings of awakenings/epiphanies are catalysts
to create new possibilities and generate
stories that are fluid, ripe blossoming vines,
FLOWING,
generating life-affirming energies
to RISE
discovering exploring and welcoming
ADVENTURE.
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We can choose to be a riSING enLIGHTened LOTUS.
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Or, not
– unwilling to evolve, learn, discover, improvise and overcome. STUNTED/STUCK/SAD/KEEPING EYES WIDE SHUT
turning AWAY
from one’s light, truth and blooom.
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Some of our stories can halt time/space
and
freeze into eMOTIONal TRIGGERS
that cloud our SEEING and STOPS our movement to DANCE with YES.
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Can a healing
breakthrough
occur
and
part the clouds, seas and reactive visceral wasteland
into a
NEW HAPPYJOY SONG?
YES?
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Hubris <> Humility
HUBRIS:
“Through pride we are ever deceiving ourselves. But deep down below the surface of the average conscience a still, small voice says to us, something is out of tune.” Carl Jung
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“I’ve learned that people will forget what you said, people will forget what you did, but people will never forget how you made them feel.”
Maya Angelou
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HUMILITY:
“Pride makes us artificial and humility makes us real.” Thomas Merton
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“Do you wish to rise? Begin by descending. You plan a tower that will pierce the clouds? Lay first the foundation of humility.”
Saint Augustine
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2 June 2018 Catherine L. Johnson
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eMOTIONal TRIGGERS
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Telling the truth, disclosing, revealing an eMOTIONal TRIGGER to a beloved is the courage of love. INTIMATE information of being naked, vulnerable, overwhelmed. Being in TRIGGERland is NOT the NOW – it is the THEN when I had NO VOICE. The revelation can be hurled out as a HOWL, a blaring SIREN, a dog growling showing its teeth when its tail is wagging because I am telling YOU – who I trust with ALL my heart. I may sound stern and SCARY because I am anxious, exposed and ashamed. It is MY work to be a responsible and loving FARMER. I must confront the eMOTIONal TRIGGER – find its roots, recognize its origin and PULL it UP and OUT because my eMOTIONal TRIGGER may possibly incite an eMOTIONal TRIGGER in you – and, this could generate an OH NO a downward spiral and SHUTdowns may occur. We learn from disclosures and sacred listening and then adapt, improvise to overcome – ALL to move forward with sweet honorable love.
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I desire to inspire and seed BLOOMING. Relationships, like gardens, are ALIVE, dynamic, need tender nourishing, nurturing, and the continuous practice of the Serenity Prayer to uphold its health and dance – to live and move forward like the MIGHTY Mississippi River. Like a GOOD FARMER, I know I must tend to my own garden by digging FAR DOWN, carefully identify, extricate and releasE the OLD knotted unhealthy roots that holds back my breath and laughter – living LOVE WITH who I love.
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BLOOOM #5 Catherine L. Johnson 2017
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FREEEEEEdom.
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Quietly, sweet. I do ask for patience + assistance so I may SOAR, freed, please. I would be honored to reciprocate and give you my patience and assistance as you EXPLORE the BOUNDLESS skies and seas within you. NEW constellations and compositions THAT IS living ELATION. YES. To be the guardians of each other’s solitude.* Absolutely!
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VITAL RAF WHITE SILK SCARF TRUTH:
When navigating difficult waters between one another – a dark night, it is absolutely critical to NOT use the BINARY vehicle of hard, cold email, it divides and sterilizes the poem, the beauty, the radiant song, the lullaby, the laughter, the joy and the blessed gift of who you are together. The difficult waters NEED the MUSIC of BOTH of your LIVE presences, your souls, your full spectrum voices, your intimate hymn and code to make the voyage and BREAKTHROUGH into dawns + ONTO new horizon of more refined truths and living love. The binary nature of email is dualistic, does not surrender to a higher consciousness, damages, does NOT improvise, it destroys + devours, obfuscates, and is basically an evil coward whose teeth cannot hear and cannot SEE the luminous pearls that lives in BOTH of your hearts. Yes, writing to one another OPENS exhilarating vistas of WONDER and AWE – sharing each other’s INTERNAL UNIVERSE which is FREEDOM, especially when the writing is received with delight, welcomed and treasured as a rare gift. Yet, in times when sacred listening and collaboration is necessary email fails to be a brilliant hurricane lamp. The sonics of bliss is PRESENCE and is the FIRE of how dissonance becomes consonance once again followed by FRESH resonances >NEW MUSIC< BOTH arrivING on NEW shores of comfort and JOY together – MISSION accomplished. Knowing/TRUST the heart map IS always inked in your RAF WHITE SILK SCARF, listen to your soul’s knowing – HOMEfires! The revelation of LIGHT enters the dark with GRACE releasing false narratives/perceptions and compasses are reset, clarified, with BOTH of your coordinates of TRUE North. Your spitfires are readied to SOAR into majestic skies with FAIR PLAY!
LOVE is COURAGE
COURAGE is LOVE
LIVINGloVE is the most profound improvisational collaborative innovative jazzNEWmuseic.
VALIANT.
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Life is in relation and called out by our collaborative relationships we select and nurture with integrity.
When someone is NOT in TRIGGERland, they have a clearer perspective of what they want in life. CLARITY, a clear lens to see what IS.
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YES, eMOTIONal TRIGGERS can be “rooted UP + OUT“!
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YAAAY! FREEDOM! LIVING LOVE with HONOR/ RESPECT/ CLARITY! LOVE is an ENERGY, a vibration, and like the BEST GENIUS SONICS, LOVE is improvisational and collaborative. When MASTER sacred listening is woven WITH unfolding conversations and NEW imaginative questions – (catalysts of amaZING GRACE vistas), LOVE LIBERATES! Authentic, call and response love IS a practice, a voyage, a BREAKTHROUGH, that yields bliss and tastes of HEAVEN on EARTH. A blesSING, a blessed gift.
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Ask any ARTIST and/or GENIUS of any field of inquiry, WHY discipline and perseverance is necessary to create/nurture breathtaking beauty, elegance and surprise with grace. Their answer is of declaring the honoring and respecting the DIVINE within, and so it goes for LIVING LOVE.
FARMERS OF LOVE.
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I am not perfect.
I believe
anyone, if willing, can be in the state
of awareness
of their own self-directed choices, their thoughts,
choosing how to navigate their own internal /external circumstances
and practice the dynamics of adjustments to what is real:
MOVING FORWARD IN LIFE
demonstrated by courage and humility,
and
the willingness and the ability
to revise world views, perspectives, perceptions and amend behavior
through each life experience.
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HEALING
needs to take place
at a deeper level than of conscious thought
– a place where the conscious mind is out of the way.
Re-wiring. Re-patterning. Re-learning. Releasing.
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LIVING a
FULLBLOOOOMING
loving life
is an unknown, non-binary
DANCE
navigating /negotiating
oceans of uncertainty,
PRACTICing, practICING, PRACTicing,
responsive and fluid adjustments to life’s constancy of change
and
is
an exhilarating
LIVING A/LIVE JOY DANCE
attuned to
Nature’s generous BOUNTIFUL offerings and spiritual lessons:
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Opening UP
to
uncertainty, surrendering to FLOW and dedicated discoverylearning
IS
to reap/receive
HAPPINESS, WONDER + AWE.
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https://catherineljohnson.wordpress.com/2018/05/04/802-onto-1-2-3-in-or-into-a-state-of-awareness-about-may-2018-catherine-l-johnson/
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Releasing Emotional Triggers
PLEASE CLICK THE LINK BELOW FOR THE ENTIRE ARTICLE
https://theoverwhelmedbrain.com/triggers/
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Summary:
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Triggers are like old cassette tapes that play old programs. You get triggered by someone or something that happens, and that old cassette plays once again.
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When you’re triggered, you are regressing to a younger version of yourself that learned how to react or respond to your environment. If you had something happen to you when you were younger that caused a significant impact to your nervous system, where you felt high emotional stress, then that’s most likely when a trigger was formed.
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We take these triggers that formed years ago into our adult relationships. This causes problems because most of what happens today is not the same context of when the trigger was created so long ago. If you formed triggers when you were a child living with your parents or other guardians, then that situation is different than your current situation, most likely. Though, you do have to be aware that some situations are similar. If you had an abusive mom or dad, then you married an abusive person, you created the same context in which your old triggers will stay active. Which is why it’s so important to break the pattern of old triggers so you can think from a place of clarity.
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Thinking from clarity gives you more options, and allows you to see what you can’t see when you are triggered. When you can disengage trigger moments from the bad thoughts and feelings, you are empowered to engage your assertiveness, confidence, and conviction to state what you want and don’t want in your life. Living without the cloudiness of triggers is living with passion and purpose. It is a healthy, selfish state, instead of an unhealthy, self-centered, fearful state. There is a difference, as selfishness can contain compassion for others, while self-centeredness is more about your own ego – your own wants, needs, fears and desires. Remove the cloudiness, become healthy and make decisions that positively affect you and your well-being.
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The steps to this entire process are as follows:
Think of something that triggers you now.
Identify the emotions that you get from being triggered.
Go way back in your mind and think about the very first time you felt this way.
If you can’t figure out what caused the trigger in the first place, just think of an age or a time period when it might have happened.
Once you think of a time when it might have been created, think about a time long before that, when you didn’t have those negative feelings. Think about a day or a week, or even years, or maybe even lifetimes before that first event ever happened. This is just your brain’s way of storing information. Just allow it to go where ever it needs to go to find a place when all of those emotions are completely gone now.
When you are way before any of those old feelings, come back to now, and imagine a time when you might get triggered in the future. Does it have the same impact? Are the emotions completely gone?
I didn’t say this before, but if they have disappeared completely just lock that feeling into place, sort of like a safe with a combination lock. This safe is your safe and whenever you have an experience where that old trigger used to happen, your safe has locked into place what you’ll be feeling instead of those old feelings. Hey, this doesn’t have to make sense, you can just let old feelings go and allow yourself to feel safe. Now that’s something you want for yourself, right?
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Finally, remember that triggers are almost always the creation and belief system of a child. When you were young, you learned how to respond to the world. Imagine if you kept all your childhood beliefs? Having a childlike playfulness can make life enjoyable sometimes, but having a childlike fear can be intrusive in normal life. It can wear you down and make you see the world through filters that aren’t necessarily telling you the whole truth.
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I know and accept
eMOTIONal TRIGGERS
are normal responses
from my/our
“experientially lived life stories”
wired
brain.
Yet, eMOTIONal TRIGGERS
do NOT have to STAY in my/our lives
if they are
CAUSING painful, super BLUNDERING
problems and SHUTdowns!
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To live in
TRIGGERland
is constant stress
that causes overwhelming + 222 much pain
that it makes me/one NEED to isolate
as the ONLY survival option
and
GO to the underground BUNKER
– alone
retreat to feel safe and to reset life
I know this.
HARD, eclipsing the vitality of breath + radical HOPE,
exhausting the HeART/ BODY/ SOUL.
This makes me sad, cry. I know THIS reality. I “get it”.
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BETTER to FARM
and
BLOOOOM!!!!!
LIVE GREEEN
CHOOSE adventure,
unveil, disclose, reVEal
taking the DISCIPLINED risk
of
entering
BEAUTY
+
HAPPINESS
because
LIFE is meant
to be
DISCOVERED / LIVED
as an explorer, a RAF
detectivepriest
of
one’s pursuit of
HAPPINESS
+
to LIVE one’s
TRUTH.
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R/evolution
as we
TELL THE TRUTH,
adapt,
IMPROVISE
overCOME.
A select few of us HUMANS
are dogs living in human bodies!
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LEARNDISCOVERY is life long
for the OPEN-hearted.
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Ask my dog,
Jaspar Obi
and
his BCF who is called Queen X
THEIR sentient intelligence
IS
an immeasurable
a DARK sTar energy
beyond
my/our comprehension.
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I fall because I am human and I lose my compass and vision.
I SUPER blunder and SOUND like a sharpened scary SPEAR.
The dog heart in me believes in me, knows I am scared,
and KNOWS my capacity to learn and RISE,
once again, will occur with courage and compassion.
Forgive me.
I will try and I will learn and I will improvise and I will overcome and I will heal.
I shall overcome with God’s GRACE and encouragement and illumination.
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LEARNINGDISCOVERINGTAKINGRESPONSIBILITY
to recognize my/our triggers,
and
to start
LOOKING INWARD
for the solution,
NOT OUTWARD
at the world!!!
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“Find a place inside where there’s joy, and the joy will burn out the pain.“
Joseph Campbell
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rosE: FIRE III Catherine L. Johnson 2018
https://catherineljohnson.wordpress.com/2018/04/26/800-rose-fire-i-vii-april-2018-appear-hide-gold-pearls-or-snakes-scorpions/
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I was a submarine.
I am a submarine.
https://catherineljohnson.wordpress.com/2018/05/27/806-i-breathe-submarine-internal-violet-that-this/
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* “The point of marriage “of an improvisational and collaborative healthy loving relationship” is not to create a quick commonality by tearing down all boundaries; on the contrary, a good marriage “healthy, dynamic and loving relationship” is one in which each partner appoints the other to be the guardian of his solitude, and thus they show each other the greatest possible trust. A merging of two people is an impossibility, and where it seems to exist, it is a hemming-in, a mutual consent that robs one party or both parties of their fullest freedom and development. But once the realization is accepted that even between the closest people infinite distances exist, a marvelous living side-by-side can grow up for them, if they succeed in loving the expanse between them, which gives them the possibility of always seeing each other as a whole and before an immense sky.”
― Rainer Maria Rilke, Letters to a Young Poet
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https://catherineljohnson.wordpress.com/2016/11/27/693-waterfall-willow-shelter-in-a-storm-yourmy-willow-oh-willow-when-the-sun-is-out/
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I fly spitfires + kites.
Do you?
I accept only CROWNS worthy of my respect, value, integrity and honor.
RAF pledge – “To look after ALWAYS.”
ONLY RAF/DUNKIRK MAVERICK Kind Thoughtful Gracious GentleMaN
RAF MAVERICK/VALIANT MAN of Character / Practice / Principles
a man forever trying to improve himself
NO Runaway Bailouters NO Arrogant CUBES NO Negative Self-centered BITERS NO Jonnies
“Piece of Cake” Fluent, Creative, NEW BREED LEADER Negotiators
= COURAGEOUS RADICAL HOPE EQUALS =
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Piece_of_Cake_(TV_series)
I do not jump hoops for a pellet, and there is no object in the whole wide galaxy that could ever rein me in.
I am an adventure.
My conscious choice, my active decision.
ADVENTurous Coeur
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Are you?
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INTeRACTIONS:
NO CUBeS. NO ROSCOeS. NO clinging CLAWS.
NO poor me blaming/shaming hostile WHINeRS NO potato chip lazy TIMIDS
ONLY a LOTUS GLOW GReeNS VALIANT SOUL!!!!!
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CATHERINE L. JOHNSON 